Today we celebrate an icon and inspiration. Today we celebrate the woman who never ceases to amaze me. Today we celebrate the person that saved me during my darkest times. Today we celebrate my rolemodel, the incredible, extraordinary Ms. Kate Moss.
Now, I know what you might be thinking. What the hell? You’re a Shakespeare scholar recovering from severe anorexia. Why are you obsessed with a drug-addicted supermodel known for saying ‘Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels’? Let me explain:
As a little girl, I’d flip through the pages of Vogue at my grandmother’s house. I found a picture I liked, cut it out, and made a paper-doll. I put her up on the wall of my room with some blue sticky-putty. She hung above my bed, scowling down at me–a sort of a guardian angel, a sort of a teacher, a sort of a mother. If I ever had a question, if I ever felt down, I’d look up and I’d think, ‘What would Paper-Doll Kate do?’. She’d smile her pretty, pouty half-smile, and I’d know that whatever it was, however it turned out, we can and would make it through.
I am alive today because of Kate Moss. It sounds silly, I know, but Kate Moss–or rather a photo of Kate Moss–taught me how to eat again. There’s this picture of her–she’s sitting by a car, wearing no makeup, eating an ice cream cone; she looks so at peace, so content, so secure. I figured that if Kate Moss could eat ice cream, so could I–and I did; I set this photo as my phone background, took a deep breath, and with shaking hands, purchased my first ice cream cone in five years.
Kate Moss saved my life, and what’s more, she showed me how to live it. Through her example, I have learned that individuality is a necessity, that addiction and sickness can be vanquished, that beauty is not only external, and, that, finally, I can be whatever I want to be. People may not say, on account of her high-profile partying and the extremely de-contextualised quote above, that Kate Moss is a good rolemodel, but ‘what other people say isn’t going to stop me’; I am proud to tell you that Kate Moss is my hero, my savior, and yes, my rolemodel.
Ms. Moss, if you are reading this, I want to wish you the happiest of birthdays. You are an amazingly talented, beautiful, and inspirational woman. I am a braver, kinder, happier person because of you. Thank you for all that you do, and once again, happy, happy birthday.